How many of us REALLY have it together?

Ok...so it has been a while since I have posted anything....I haven't felt like there was much to share with the blog world, so I'll just start rambling and see if there is anything that any of you relate to.

1. My hard working husband has been traveling way too much lately and the kids and I are missing him incredibly! We all have been in a funk and really can't explain it, other than we don't have everybody all together on a regular basis, and we are realizing how much we miss our family unit as a whole.

2. I'm struggling with my place in ministry...am I supposed to stay plugged into the Women's Ministry like I am or lay low and let someone else fill my roll? I have been throwing this around since before the first of the year and I don't know how long I'm supposed to hold out to know if it's just me or if the Lord is prompting me to move on.

3. There is a member of my family who is struggling and I can't do anything about it...I can throw my suggestions and "you otta's" around all day long, but it's not my life and I can't live it for them. I just pray for God to give them wisdom in all the decisions they make on a daily (minute by minute) basis. God is a bigger God than this problem and I need to let Him control it and not let it control me.

4. Raising my kids to be godly, respectful, polite, courteous, gentle, kind, loving, self-controlled, joyful, good, peaceful and patient (fruits of the Spirit with a few extra characteristics) is the hardest job I have ever had. There are days when I fail miserably because I do not portray a single one of the attributes listed and I'm "barking" at my kids to be respectful and obedient...hmm, let's see do you think that makes them want to have a good attitude. "God, please help me on a daily basis to be to my children what they need in order to be the Christian servants that you desire for them to be."

5. My good friend Kellye Stone just said goodbye to her mom, as she went to meet our Lord, Monday morning. What a bitter-sweet experience it was this week to know that Jan's body is restored to it's purest health, while she leaves behind a wonderful family full of grandkids and one on the way. I was talking with another friend of mine, Andrea White and we absolutely do not want to experience this pain...when I told my mom this, she replied, "Neither did I".
I'm thankful that God doesn't take our grief personally, and that he understands our pain and desires to comfort us with His love.

Ok...these are by no means profound thoughts or words to ponder, but I have been silent for most of February and I wanted to lay out there what I'm thinking about and struggling through. I guess I always want to portray an "I've always got it together" ideal, but this is more my reality at the moment. Owning up to these struggles could possibly say "I'm trying to get it together!"

I hope to post a few pics the next time...